grief

Two Truths for Hard Times

The question at hand – How do I rest when the bottom falls out? Two truths will take us far. This week I have had to live them. Most of you know our son, Josh (20), is …

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Man on a Mission

When a person learns that they are dying, it does not mean they are dead or even half-dead. It means they are alive. Their life matters. Each day counts. Purpose and passion take on new meaning. Josh wants his living and …

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Fixed and Focused

I’ve spent 19 years “fixing” Josh. Born with Sickle Cell Anemia, Josh came home through the miracle of adoption when he was 6 months old. He’s been a medically complex kid since the day he arrived into our lives—gaining …

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Alone

I am rarely alone these days. It’s not good. It felt dangerous to be alone this week. When I was, every ounce of bottled emotion released its fury. My throat tightened. My stomach knotted. I forgot how to …

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Refuge

Retreat has had two primary focuses in my life: Offensive. Defensive. I retreat to refuel—to tank up—as I run the race. I retreat to find refuge when battered and worn. My day away could not have been …

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Come Away

I’m in a good place. A God place. But that doesn’t mean I’m in a great place. The spin cycle is brutal. I land on my feet most days, but the constant pounding of the agitator (that …

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Little Brother

Big brother. Little brother Josh has 3 younger brothers (and a younger sister), but only one little brother. Noah is 12 and he and Josh have shared a room for years. They have a love-hate relationship, but …

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Precious Memories

There are seasons in life, journeys we take, that leave us with only enough breath to whisper.  We can, then, be most grateful that pictures really do speak louder than words. Josh and Mama, “in the arms …

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On assignment

We have a special agent among us. I have come to believe Josh is on assignment. And God is not finished with him yet. As a family, we found ourselves sitting on the front porch of heaven …

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Front Porch

The free fall has ended. In the span of 11 days, our 19 year old son Joshua, went from being in the hospital (“you are too sick to treat at home” on Monday) to being admitted into …

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